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TL Miller's avatar

Haunting, yet beautiful!

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

🖤👀

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Sky's avatar

So gorgeous... there really are so many different versions of all of us (I believe!) and it's scary to imagine them all revealing themselves. But slowly, maybe🖤

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Slowly always. When I started writing this it took a lot of time for each one of these ghosts to actually reveal themselves… 💀

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jybyky's avatar

The expression is very touching, and terrifying among the secrets of self.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thank you. 🙏🏼 Yes it was terrifying to explore this to say the least. 💀

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Lia's avatar

I was so moved by this very creative, raw, honest rendition of our hidden inner selves, the ones we forgot-or try to at least. Thank you for this,mine still linger sometimes. But the more I write, the more I talk about them, the spotlight is on them. It's made me believe this is what is needed, to honor their presence, to purify the pain and eventually surrender it to the light. The more they are caged and ignored , the more they rattle the bars of the cages I've put them in...

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Lia! Yes the only way to exorcise them out of their rattling cages is to write them out of extinction

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Eleana Josephine🧚🏻's avatar

This was moving. 🖤 it made me feel. Thank you for sharing your soul

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Sandra's avatar

“When we name the nightmare, we stop living inside of it!” Powerful and oh so true! 💕

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Sandra. Isn't it the truth. Shed light on those ghosts.

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Alex_the_Addict's avatar

i have a scary ghost with a secret too

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Chris Keller's avatar

I thoroughly enjoyed the glimpse into the many sides of you. I await the girl afraid to come out, thin as air. When you are ready she will be released.

One thing jumped out of the page, is that because of what I do irl, I have come to one very clear realization: never trust juries in courtrooms or in your head.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

the girl afraid to come out finally made her appearance...

i feel bleak, exposed, shit I haven't even had to nerve to say in the 12 step live room. But here, we can still be virtually anonymous. and how you doing? havent seen a new post of yours in a while?

https://open.substack.com/pub/cynishere/p/edge-of-erasure?r=3vddjw&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false

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Chris Keller's avatar

Tbh, the difference is between when I am helping people and when I am just being a cog in a very large wheel.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Helping people is the attorney. Lawyer is the cog? ⚙️

Can you be both?

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Chris Keller's avatar

on a good day, yes. there is great potential.

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Chris Keller's avatar

Sometimes a lawyer, sometimes an attorney. Usually trying to figure out which one is really me. ;)

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

In your opinion what’s the difference between the two?

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

I grew up with lawyers in my family. My father, grandfather, brother, ex boyfriend…

A heavy internal voice ive consumed like osmosis - have to hit my own gravel to shut it up.

Which makes me wonder what you do irl

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romantic fugitive.'s avatar

goddamn cyn 😭"I’m every man you’ve ever loved… or hated"

i think my closet is a cemetery

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

ufff, light candles for their memories. 🕯️

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romantic fugitive.'s avatar

they dont deserve it

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

no, but you do…. let their faces be erased

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romantic fugitive.'s avatar

amen sister

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Allen Kwon's avatar

Isn’t it wild how we all have these hidden halls inside us, packed with dusty selves we’ve locked away?

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

yes, i hear their voices at times like multiple personalities - i want to not hide them anymore and let them speak... especially through writing

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Anna B. Reardon (she/her)'s avatar

Lovely 💖💖

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Rea de Miranda's avatar

Winesses not captives, true words, Cyn. <3 <3

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Rea, yep - a way to pull out of the wreckage.

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DiagnosisInLove's avatar

This was creative. Well done.

I opened my closet door years ago and told em all to get the fuck out lol.

I’m haunted by what I’ve got. Nothing

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Outtamydamnmind's avatar

The way you spoke about so many different versions of you was beautiful.

I’m so glad you’re naming your ghosts! Love this and what it means for you on this journey 🫶🏼

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

yeah, multiple personalities, i never know who's showing up. lol

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Brant David McLaughlin's avatar

Made me think of the Dream Theater song "Space-Dye Vest".

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

oooh, listening to that now….🖤 looove it

https://youtu.be/ZHxQKMm2fNY?si=iKeCP_HEr5eLyeBT

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Brant David McLaughlin's avatar

Powerful honesty.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

why thank you Brant. It’s the only way to be isn’t it?

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