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Graeme Outerbridge's avatar

So,,you are riding in the Coach^^

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Carlos M.'s avatar

"I wish one of these Silicon Valley tech geniuses would invent a mental cleaning service."

That idea is amazing that's a short story on its own 😂

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Sandi's avatar

I am on the same journey with you. Not to the same extent, but there are other bad memories that invade and make we want to pacify it with whatever I can.

I wish we could give each other a hug and a thumbs up for trying, and knowing nod to each other. 💕

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

virtual hugs to you Sandi… glad we’re here trying, not pacifying… feeling all the feels. x

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Sandi's avatar

Nothing changes if we don’t. Hugs! 💕

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Peter Smetanick's avatar

I loved the rhythm of this all the way through and damn it packed a punch. Great stuff.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Peter. Glad you felt the punch. 😎

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Deanne Ames's avatar

“Existential Whack-a-Mole?” This phrase, as well as the whole gloriously descriptive tone of your post, will stick with me awhile. Cross addictions? Thanks for the reminder (I think 🤔?).

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Klara Croft's avatar

Loved this! someone recommended your page to me and I relate so much, thank you for writing this 🤍

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Oooh, Hi Klara - love your profile description: a little messy, and always with feeling. This space is a mix of confessions, questions, and the kind of talks you'd only share with your bestie after midnight.

Looks like we have a lot in common. I’m doing a deep dive on your page right now. 😍

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Shannon Bindler's avatar

Sign me up for the mental services cleaning package! This was beautiful, honest, and deep. I can't tell I'm gonna love your content!

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Shannon! This is the first chapter to my new book I’m putting out soon on cross-addiction. It’s a beast! I like your writing too!!

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Shannon Bindler's avatar

I'll be a reader! 👏💥

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Cauldron Conversations's avatar

Standing in the kitchen of my friends apartment, just had a tearful meltdown and standing tentatively on the edge…your words have been a salve for my emotions and how I feel.. Along with the various comments of other women feeling the same. Thank you 🖤

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

That fills my dark parts up with gratitude that you resonate and connected with this. Thank you. 🙏🏼

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Megan C's avatar

Nailed it!

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wildflower's avatar

I‘m so glad I stumbled upon your note that day!! 🤍

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wildflower's avatar

„I’m cross addicted - replacing one obsession with the next in an all-you-can-ruin buffet of self-destruction, served hot and endless.“

What you wrote hit home so deeply. I could have quoted the whole post. I love your raw writing style, like speaking right out of my messy, fractured head. I totally felt this and loved reading it!! 🖤

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wildflower's avatar

Of course I don’t mind, it would be an honor!!

Is your first book available in paper form? I’m so old school. ;)

Thank you so much, this really means a lot coming from you!! 🖤

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thank you! Yes, my first book is about running away from a cheating ex and toxic Hollywood gig for the hills of Mexico to get sober from a heavy pill and alcohol addiction.

You can read the first chapter free on this post here: https://cynishere.substack.com/p/left-my-xanax-in-la-la-land

And the book here: https://amzn.to/3ZzfLmd

I’m truly in love with your mixed media photos with poetry… have you ever thought of or have already put together a coffee table type book with all of them? Do you take all those photos?

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wildflower's avatar

Ordered!!

Thank you! 🖤 Yes, it’s my long term project. But I let it slide a bit.

Yes, I shoot all the images I use in my posts and for my visual art. I love this kind of storytelling, it’s more intense.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

so glad to hear it resonated. i actually turned this post into the intro opening of my next book so once I start to put it together do you mind if I use your comment for my review page with your handle? I love your work too!!

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Living Among Humans @ Linda's avatar

Hey 👋 It's me.

You know no judgement here.

I am sad you are still struggling.

I will remind you " all God's children got issues " some more obvious than others. You are ahead of the pack by being honest.

The only emergency exit other than death, of course - is on your side of the room.

You will stop the destruction or not. It is all up to you, but you know that already.

I can tell you, it can happen in a moment. You will wake up one morning and know that it is going to be THE day. Your spirit will just let you know, it's now or never.

Death is always an option and a pretty easy out. And as I always preach to anyone who will listen

THE CHOICE IS YOURS.

Sending light and love which is much MUCH more than words.

Keep me in the loop. 🧡💥

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Hi Linda, today I chose sobriety over the destruction. I’m still cleaning up the mess which is a forever process but so worth it. Thanks for your words of support, it means a lot and how we carry each other here in virtual community speaks volumes. 🖤

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Alex_the_Addict's avatar

We would have had fun railing lines together back in the day.

Glad we're both sober

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Grace Grossmann's avatar

Girrrrrrrrl, what a deep and powerful voice you have. Addiction to drown out emotions is real. Been there too. I also LOVE how you question stupid society's perfection BS. WE ARE perfect - nothing to change, disform or chase towards... imperfection is our beauty of perfection. Keep sharing your raw and real words

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Grace, glad you resonated. Yes, perfection in our imperfections! 🖤

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Joe W's avatar

Trauma has great timing and even better commitment issues.

felt this. your writing is so raw and every paragraph of this piece was so beautifully written, I'm looking forward to reading more

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Joe - that means a lot. I love your work too. Deep and dark just like I like it. x

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Valeria Dominguez's avatar

This is SO good!!!

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

Thanks Valeria -that’s the opening for the next book. wahooo

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